Name:     blue star
IP:       64.69.254.8
Subject:  happy new years!
Email:    bluestarliz@hotmail.com
Website:  http://
wow...2000 really flew by huh?  no one's been posting so i thought i'd attempt
to start a new topic of conversation.  first of all, what are everyone's
resolutions? (cheesy,i know, but i'm genuinely curious)  i am still coming up
with some, but i have a few for starters...



1.  not be so goddamn stressed...i am one of the most tense people i
know...every thing from how easy i am to pester to the way i sit when i
drive...i'm one big ball of stress, even when i don't have too many things to
worry about.  i'm taking a yoga class next semester; hopefully this will help.
if not, maybe it will make me flexible and i can have really kinky sex.  or
not.



2.  find a job i can actually stand.  i had one for a month last year, working
at a record store for $6.50 an hour.  then my manager started stealing from the
register and blamed it on me.  unemployed  for the rest of the summer, then the
horrible gatti's gig.  i think tomorrow i'm gonna go to jack and jill donuts
and apply, my mom said they are hiring.  donuts kick ass.


3.  make good grades.  they sucked at unt.  my gpa was a 2.75 i think, and i
lost my scholarship. at spc though, i'm kicking ass (probably since it's so
painfully easy).  i don't know my culmutative gpa, but i got a 3.8 last
semester, and i got good grades over the summer as well.  so i just need to
keep that up.



also, what did everyone get out of this year?



this sounds awful, but the biggest thing is i'm a lot more cynical than at the
beginning of the year.  people can really fucking suck...i've learned this from
the shit jobs i've held (damn, i've had three jobs in the past year...my income
taxes are gonna suck to do).  fellow employees can suck, your boss can suck
(especially the one's who's wife left them a couple weeks before you get
fired), and most of all, the general public can really fucking suck.



i've watched relationships change, sometimes for the better, sometimes for the
worst.  i'm not as close to my sister as i used to be, after she hooked up with
andy (my opinion of him has changed as well).  my relationship with my best
friend has changed, not for the better or for the worst...just different.  i
didn't even know kenny all that well at the beginning of the year.  i know kat
and derek and shelley better...and i actually know keenon, i don't think i'd
ever even met him before this year.  i'm closer to my mom (and i am finally
getting away from seeing her as being just a parent--strange alien lifeform, of
course--to a human being as well...a very left brained version of me, for that
matter).  my friendship with brian (from lucky) wavers from being good friends
to not talking all that much (i used to consider him one of my best friends,
but we've grown apart), and at the beginning of the year, i was hooked up w/
kyle, but avoided him through most of december because he had made me
uncomfortable.  my old band broke up, and i formed a new new one, the grand
prize, with meredith (another person i've gotten a lot closer to) and luis (who
is an increasingly good friend, and another person i didn't know until this
year).  ah...the soap opera that is my life!



and there are countless other things that have happened this year, some small
and others large, that have definately affected me this year.  i learned i like
the color orange and that i have asthma.  i learned that i am actually really
good at watercolor and learned how to take and develope photographs.  i made a
web page.  i went from being stressed, broke, and lonely in denton, to being
stressed, broke, and lonely in lubbock.  and it's really fun to make fun of
vegetarians...even though i wanted to be one myself at one point.  lastly, i
dont like snow as much as i thought i did.  hope this wasn't too cheesy.



"and i take that bottle of champaign and pour it on my head"

-liz