Name: Zvaldos Vauxhal IP: 208.247.125.77 Subject: Gedanken zum Denken auf einer kalten Winternacht Email: vauxhal@drunkenbastards.com Website: http:// when I arrived home tonight, I heard a cat meowing, and it sounded very unhappy. I figure it was the cute neighborhood cat, cold and lonely in the snow. I hope it wasn't it freezing to death. At first that's what I assumed it was. And it made me sad. At first I thought I was sad because oh what a horrible bastard God in Heaven is making plants, humans and cats suffer. I assumed this, of course, because I am the smartest person on Earth and therefore carry the immense suffering greater than that of all the poets and exisentialists combined. (And if you don't think existenialists are sad, read "The Adulterous Woman" by Albert Camus [pronounced "FRED-rick NEECH-ee"]) But I realized, no, I just didn't want that cat to suffer, and I assume it is going to be okay. And then Keenon, with his rapier like wit, made me forget about it. But then I started thinking (always a bad sign) and remembered something someone said to me once. And then that made me think of other things I'd heard that made me think. I can tell you when each and every one of these was said and by whom. Some are book quotes, most are from people. Here they are. Some have what I thought below them, but it's usuallt short. Sounds gay, just like all other learning and wisdom. Learning isn't gay. Well, okay it is. It's mediocre, just like me. What you need to dois find bad things, and compare yourself to them. It's all relative. I'd love you forever if it wasn't so long. I once loved someone forever. It took roughly 657 days. It was a long time. Don't mind me. I wouldn't even if I could. Your life is really tumultous. Everyone's life is. Except that one guy, with the hat. You know. The Pope. I am now conversation starved. You always will be. i'm begining to realize i'm kinda a screwed up person. EPIPHANY! Obviously doctor, you've never been a 13 year old girl. I was never 13. I went from 10 to 15. And then I was a seven year old girl. It was weird.